Conversations with myself

theendbye

2010-03-07T15:41:00.000-08:00

Hey blog, I'm going to kill you now kthxbye.

Ocean`

会呼吸的痛

2009-12-06T05:12:00.000-08:00

朋友问我，
她曾经为我做过的最感动的事是什么..
我说，
有很多很多都很感动，
最让我感到窝心的是那一天..

我们静静地依偎在一起，
像平时一样聊着天的时候，
不知道怎么她亲了亲我脸颊..
我呆了一下，
然后看着她问道：
“怎么会突然亲我的脸？”
因为平时都是我主动亲她..

她抬起躲在我怀里的脸告诉我：
“你说过你喜欢我亲你脸蛋的..”

...“？！”........

她......

虽然我只是不经意提起过，
她都记在心里..
因为她想要疼我，
想要我开心，
我都知道..

一个吻，
灌注所有的爱意..
那一刻，
我感动得说不出话..
抱着她的手只有搂得更紧..

我们的体温，
暖暖的..
我们的心，
暖暖的..

最简单的快乐，
最朴实的爱，
也最刻骨铭心..

..
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..
..
..
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..
..
..
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好想就这样一辈子，
好想就这样携手走到最后..

虽然一切都已成了回忆，
却因为爱，
因为她，
我学会珍惜身边美好的事..

我.... 爱你。

Ocean`

A song for you

2009-11-02T00:33:00.000-08:00

A song dedicated to James, Jing Xing, and Shy Gin..
May you all rest in peace..

One tough day for all Utarians..
James and friends will always be remembered in our hearts..

Ocean`

2012

2009-10-24T04:43:00.000-07:00

December 21, 2012

Talking about 2012..
The very first 2012 trailer that I saw in cinema,
the link is here, embedding disabled so... enjoy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IirB8F-5nh0
First trailer had my heart jump outta my chest..
I personally like the Tibet monk concept,
and the whole atmosphere built to deliver that message,
leaves the world in despair.
I was like, if that's what will happen in 2012,

what am I going to do?

Updated official trailer,
big time owning with the volcanic eruptions,
tsunamis, earthquakes,
destruction of cities and all that
leading to the day mankind meets its extinction,
a total wipe out of the human civilization,
or to be more precise, the end of the world(and Earth?).
Check this link,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyCCd8MCcZY&feature=fvsr
if the world is meant to be ended that way, it'll be just too cool,
100 billion watt of epicness.

Roland Emmerich,
the director of Independence Day
and The Day After Tomorrow,
great job making 2012!
Never ever doubt of his capability which
makes every each of us shits on our pants watching his movies.
I've seen both of his production,
Independence Day now still on the top list of my
favorite movies of all time.

Looking forward to see the movie 2012!
Who wants to experience the end of the world together with me?
I offer free hugs for female
and free tissues for male in case you shit on your pants.
XD

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A warm quotation to comfort all frightened souls.

"…when a calendar comes to the end of a cycle, it just rolls over into the next cycle. In our Western society, every year 31 December is followed, not by the End of the World, but by 1 January. So 13.0.0.0.0 in the Mayan calendar will be followed by 0.0.0.0.1 – or good-ol' 22 December 2012, with only a few shopping days left to Christmas."
– Excerpt from Dr Karl's "Great Moments in Science".

More to update once I get new ideas for the issue 2012.

Ocean` 2012

Binks' Sake

2009-10-14T19:54:00.001-07:00

Binks' Sake

The true song of pirates!! Another favorite song from One Piece. ;)

Lyrics:

Yo-hohoho, Yohohohoo,
Yo-hohoho, Yohohohoo,
Yo-hohoho, Yohohohoo,
Yo-hohoho, Yohohohoo,

Going to deliver Binks' Sake!
Following the sea breeze!
Riding on the waves!
Far across the salty depths!
The merry evening sun!
Painting circles in the sky!
as the Birds Sing

Farewell to the harbor,
To my old hometown
Lets all sing out with a Don!
As the ship sets sail
Waves of gold and silver
dissolve to salty spray
As we all set sail to
The ends of the sea

Going to deliver Binks' Sake!
We are pirates
Sailing through the Sea!
The waves are our pillows
The ship our roost
Flying the proud Skull
On our flags and our sails

Now comes a storm
Through the far-off sky
Now the waves are dancing
Beat upon the drums
If you lose your nerve
This breath could be your last
But if you just hold on,
The morning sun will rise

Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho,
Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho,
Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho,
Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho,

Going to deliver Binks' Sake!
Today, and tomorrow,
our dreams through the night!
Waving our goodbyes,
we'll never meet again!
But don't look so down;
For at night the moon will rise!

Going to deliver Binks' Sake!
Let's all sing it with a Don!
A song of the waves
Doesn't matter who you are,
Someday you'll just be bones
Never-Ending, Ever-wandering,
Our funny Traveling tale!

Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho,
Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho,
Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho,
Yo-hohoho, Yo-hohoho..

Ocean` straw hat crew

Wednesday morning

2009-09-29T07:59:00.000-07:00

5am. Surfing random sites.. youtube, forums...
Have no idea what I should do now..
Waiting for dawn and perhaps go for breakfast..
Feels so empty.. Wanna start my new semester right now!!
Need something to do, some notes or whatever for me to read.

The memories just won't stop flowing back into my head,
some are good from previous semester, like how I've became a better person,
some are disgusting, and hurting as much at the same time.
I'll need anything at all, to keep myself busy from thinking bout the past.
Currently gaming, 2 weeks more before next sem starts
and I can't do no shits till then, whatever imma day dream for now.

Started to lost contact with old friends/sec school friends
since god knows when.
Had lotsa friends back then at Sam Tet, some are awesome,
some are also cool but you don't want to talk to them lol,
and others are totally out of my world.

? why of all things think bout sec school........ nvm.
Secondary school was great,
life was like go school, sleep in the class, jokes around,
hanging around with friends after school, typical school life.
Best was chitchatting with friends, do sohai stuffs and all that,
also ya paying attention like a stupid for favorite subject,
as if anyone would care bout the worst class in school lol.
Mr.who again? Totally forgot his name, but he had all my respects,
for doing really great job, kept Econs interesting,
at the end I made an A for Econs.
I'd thank him if I ever meet him again.

What else? yeah friends were enough to make my life great
until I met her. I spent the most crucial stage by far in my life with her.
I changed so much from a typical highschooler because of all her loves,
she taught me everything, she showed me who I really am,
what I can really do,
she appreciated me more than how much I appreciated my life,
never we did concern about the return
for giving out all our loves, just for both of us,
she lived my life and I lived hers,
every single day we spent together, cherished.

Yeah good old memories.. Everything is changing now and I am too.
All of us will never be like an innocent baby anymore.
I just want to live my life the way I wanted, and appreciate the ones I loved.
Okay we'll put this to an end, I'll go make myself busy ya..
I'll quit listening to my heart content for now
or I will never stop thinking+typing so bye XD

Perfect World is the way to go! XD

Ocean`

Superman

2009-09-28T04:16:00.000-07:00

woohoo FINALLY!
Acoustic cover of Superman-Five for fighting
and also Ni Shi Wo De Yan-Yoga Lin
Performed by:
Vocal - Ocean+Chad
Guitar - Austin
Shake Shake - Fabian,
about 3 months after concert,
Austin uploaded the vid taken by friends,
thanks everyone!

Well the vid sounded bit noisy with
all those voices on the background,
anyway search for username austinlaiweikiat on youtube
and you will get to see some really interesting vids.
Singings, snake feedings... all those.. Enjoy! XD

Currently whoring my fantasy hideout,
I mean my favorite online game,
wakaka won't online MSN for a while now I guess..
Need some time to spend together with
me, with myself.
mmm looking forward for upcoming events/concerts,
I just.. pure love singing..
Alex! Ivonne! Come back early we're gonna
burn down Kbox! XDD

Ocean` the Superman

Sem break of the vampire

2009-09-24T12:37:00.000-07:00

Exam is finally over,

time to relax now..
woohoo!
uhh what to do during sem break? XD

Had a few plans back there but nvm,
need to get some good rest.
Was completely in hell during exam weeks,
everyday was just pure nightmares,
see notes more than see zhao gong!
ToT

Getting used now being a vampire,
4 am still sitting here typing typing typing on keyboard,
not in mood yet for my bed upstairs, so.. XD
Hmm..
After all Sem2 wasn't as fun as I thought,
shits happened here and there,
Don't wanna think about it anymore lol,
gonna format my brain now,
byebye Sem 2! *formats* XP

Still I'm glad my brothers were all there giving me support,
like how they always do.
Bye brothers we'll meet again after 3 weeks! *hugs*

A production of
Moonlite Kidz - my beloved housemates!
How I wish I was in the video..
Of course the lyrics sounds quite funny.
Fuckchiu! lol!

Gonna continue gaming for a bit,
then go to bed,
good night Kampar,
enjoy a good sem break all! XD
(can't stop XD-ing wahaha HOLIDAY!)

Ocean` the vampire

今天也要很乐观！

2009-09-15T12:18:00.000-07:00

希望每天都能很乐观，
告诉自己要有勇气去
面对接下来的每一天，
继续用笑容
感染身边的人，
让大家都开心的过日子..

不曾是个会祈祷的人，
但是如果注定了从此以后都只能
偷偷的看她，
那就请让她每天脸上都挂着笑容，
让我知道她过得开开心心，
过得幸福，
我就心满意足了..

已经是早上五点多了，
冷冷的，穿着冷衣..
明天还有考试，
一边读笔记，
一边听歌，
很轻柔的旋律，
周围很静很想睡..
看着她的照片，
看着她的脸，
她的笑，好美，
给了我撑下去的动力，
虽然已经很饿了，哈哈..
要继续奋斗了!
等考完这张考卷
再来写我的心情..
XD

Ocean`

Dead

2009-09-15T09:56:00.000-07:00

Firstly, Happy birthday Ivonne, and..

Okay, there won't be any Lips of an Angel #2..
Everything is meaningless now, Alex fetched me home and told me this,
my angel has already got a boyfriend,
so my world is now officially dead.
I'm not emo but #$%$^&^*(%$#@!# WARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHdgfdkjhflsdiguidgdjfngldsfhgsdljfgDEADDEADDEADDIEE

Just imagine someone so important to you just.. you know..
I mean, she's everything to me,
even if I am nobody to her even if I never did exist anywhere anyhow.
She's my world she's my everything.
And it's all gone, tonight, from my life. My wish, gone. She, gone. Everything GONE.
I'd rather not to think about how I should carry on with my tomorrow.

Okay, being emo ain't gonna help a single bit.
Just.. it's just..
You won't be feeling okay when you know you can't be with the one you loved.
You know what I mean.
By the way I'm still calm.
Guess something is dying inside me, well not my lungs.

Lol thinking about what Alex told me, I was like
"wtf? tell me it's not true???!!" in my heart.

Anyway, seriously, good night. I will be okay, and.. sigh she's just.... an angel.
My love to her won't change a single bit no matter what the situation is,
love is something sweet, something permanent, something.... warm.

dead Ocean`

Bye Khairul (L'VieRosa).. All the best in NS!

2009-09-14T07:07:00.000-07:00

14th of September 2009

8 something in the morning,
I opened msn
and saw this msg.

ya..
It's already 14th ...
T_T my best buddy leaving to NS le..
2 years of army training..
argh.. miss you alot!!
Take good care Rosa!!

and....
bring me some souvenirs!
Now let me sing you this...! XD

Every time I listening to the song,
it reminds me of Jeorick,
also my best buddy forever,
who immigrated to U.S. years ago..

One summer holiday
he came back to MY,
and sang this song infront of me,
he never was a good singer,
yet I cried
when I turned my head around,
and every single time
I cried thinking about it,
again and again
in silent nights..

Anyway enough sentimental talks
for tonight XD,
again all the best Rosa,
TAKE GOOD CARE!!
I should go read notes now
for tomorrow exam.
O(n_n")o

Ocean`

Lips of an Angel #1

2009-09-13T22:39:00.000-07:00

Not a tiny bit
I can recall,
that of the day I first met her,
as I never thought
I'd fall for anyone this deep,
and in just this blink of an eye,
I gave out
my heart and soul..

That was a warm evening
I ran into her,
she walk passed me by the time
I got stunned there,
"I never had this feeling before...
What.....
What am I dreamin...
or something...?"
(haha)

Stood stucked for
like a lifetime,
as the pictures of
her eyes and her lips
occupied my mind..

She..
She's so beautiful that
I can't take my eyes off her..

Never ever did care
bout what people called
love at first sight,
something that I never believed in,
now I do.

To be continued...

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One subject down and more to go, gotta go get some quick nap before next revision hour starts.. nightz Kampar...

Ocean`

LOVE STORY (Taylor Swift) meets VIVA LA VIDA (Coldplay) - Piano Cello - by Jon Schmidt

2009-09-01T14:29:00.000-07:00

A very beautiful song, you don't wanna miss it.

Edit: Original video has been removed by Jon Schmidt so this is the HQ version from another youtuber.

Ocean`

Welcoming Concert 2009

2009-06-19T06:12:00.001-07:00

Austin, Ocean, Evon, Fabian

__________Welcoming Concert 2009__________

Best word to describe everything: omgsoawesome ! XD

Photos:

Performers line up!

sorry we're bad boyz___ t(n_n t)

house mates
n_n

I'm the
smallest XD

act cute
o(n_n )O

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Thanks to Moonlite Kidz, Han Jiun, and friends all the way support us from audition to the concert. One of the best day in my life, very unforgettable experience I've gained.

Ocean`

挥之不去

2009-06-05T08:41:00.000-07:00

是什麼讓我
聽見妳說
是什麼讓我
以為妳在身邊經過
是不是太過和平的分手
才讓人更捨不得放手

像失了魂魄
不願放過
有你的感覺
和任何有妳的線索
揮之不去的寂寞
是不是說
這份妳已經丟下的感情
我還執著

我遊盪在記憶深處
尋找殘留下的溫度
我在風吹亂頭髮的街上
懷念著幸福
我在鏡子面前無助
我在夢裡慌亂追逐
我在只有我的深夜裡醒來
感到孤獨

挥之不去 - 殷悦

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很喜欢歌里那淡淡的刺痛的失落..
虽然每一次听见都心酸..

心碎过了就会变得坚强..
重新学会珍惜身侧所有美好的事..

Ocean`

Happy birthday

2009-05-22T09:36:00.000-07:00

21.5.2009
12 a.m.
Happy birthday! Receiving SMS wishes from friends, thanks to Claire, Beng, Meiqin, Silvia, Puiyee and everyone!

5 a.m.
Was supposed to wake up at 5 to go fetch Ivonne so better not go to bed. Around 9 a.m. the whole gang of us climbed up(actually walk) Bukit Kledang/Gledang whatever the name is. We're not done yet! 10 a.m. badminton session! Alex's showtime again with weird gestures and crapz. XD

2.45 p.m.
Reach Jusco, pick up some yongtaufu in food court, KBOX right after! 4 hours of singing XD satisfied more than our singing desire.

8.30 p.m.
Sister joined the gang for dinner at Cafe Aberdeen, thanks everyone for accompany me today. Thanks for the birthday song XD

10 p.m.
Exhausted! 10 hours of sleeps XD!

Wonderful day, peace and full of happiness. By the way sorry Bryan and Jun, haven't got a chance to find you all since I came back to Ipoh, will hang out with ya all someday.

Thanks L'VieRosa in Perfect World for the fireworks. XD

They brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever grateful
Oh forever faithful
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

If you could see, what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear
That angels brought me here...

Angels brought me here - Guy Sebastian

That's all for today, gonna go read the latest chapters of One piece and Gantz. Happy and warm birthday thanks everyone I enjoyed it so much.

Ocean`

Bicycle

2009-04-13T15:43:00.000-07:00

13th of April,
my bike got stolen.
Yes probably when I was outside
watching basketball match,
probably after Alex picked me up for dinner,
can't recall when exactly I lost it but then never mind,
a simple message to the thief,
I don't care who the hell you are,
with or without brain,
please,
treat my bike better you fkin thief.
XD

Come to think of it,
I gave up my chance to attend Jason Mraz's
concert all for a bicycle.
Instead of getting myself a ticket of RM238+-
to see the singer that I really admired,
I bought my bike.
It's not a matter of money,
I don't care RM20 or RM200,
it causes me a lot of trouble,
seriously.
Good job for stealing my bike,
I just.. got owned.

Ahh...
What's in their mind when they were
doing those stealing stuffs?
For money, for excitement?
Pawning Ex KS in Garena is definitely
much more fun than all of that. XD
Less drugs and
little bit more work out
with their brains will save the society(or not).

How am I going to survive for the following days?
I wonder.

Somehow I will buy myself a new bike
after getting the PTPTN loan.
So you'll be see me cycling to school again
someday! =)
Bye bye bad day.

woohoo!

Ocean`

Kenangan terindah

2009-04-03T01:52:00.000-07:00

Now I hate Friday. This is the fourth time I overslept for Friday's classes. Worst part this time was when I dreamed about the past, all of a sudden everything that I thought I've left behind came across my dream.

I dreamed of her, again. I cried my heart out, I can feel myself yelling helplessly but I couldn't hear anything. It was so suffer yet at the moment I saw her, I could just bear with the pain for another second just to see her. But then I know I need to move on.

Been trying so hard to carry on my life these days, made new friends and I experience something different from the past. This is a totally new page in the diary of my life. The beautiful memories of us, I'll bury them deep in the bottom of my heart. Promise me you'll have a happy life forever after.

Found this beautiful song and I like it very much. Here's the lyrics.

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang telah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu..
Kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku..
Kau lah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Kenangan terindah - Samsons

Going back Ipoh today, bye Kampar and friends, see you all next week.

Ocean`

Our theme song

2009-04-01T13:07:00.000-07:00

Four hours before our talkshow presentation, doesn't seem so right for a person for not feeling tired after almost 36 hours awake.. After all it's just another day that I actually lack of sleeps, who cares? I have been just thinking of how lucky I am, to be here together with you all..

To Alex: Thanks for being there every time I needed help, I could have found myself lost in all the group works/assignments if you were not there assisting me, hugs bro.

To Han Jiun: My xiao di! Hah, Thanks for bringing joys to the group all the time and helping me out when I was so stuck at my work, hugs bro.

To Ivonne: Ahaha big sis! It's really good to get to know each other.. Our group will be less fun if we never met you. You are the best gift from god my best buddy! XD

To Meiqin: Thanks for your support for all assignments, I've been quite emotional the past few weeks, time to cool down now yeah. XD

To my beloved TB4: Sorry for being emo sometimes, really sorry and thanks for the understanding, must not be fun to deal with my emo-face I bet XD.. Thanks and I appreciate you guys so much.. Please slap me if I ever emo again, I mean, don't slap, just remind me will do.. XD

And no matter what will happen to all of us after foundation, even after we graduated, you guys will always be the most special ones in my life.

Almost 6 o'clock now, best luck TB4 for the talkshow.. Before I go, let me dedicate a song for everyone that I care of. I guess the date for my next post will be..... remain as a mystery. Thanks Beng for the early bird Nasi Lemak delivery.

Good night.
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"Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing,
we're just one big family,
and it's our god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved, loved..

It is our fate, I'm yours." =)

Ocean`